I have really been struggling all week. Depression? Maybe.
Despair? I don't think so. The culprit - Lack of sleep combined
with a lack of encouragement from God's word. When I woke up this
morning I had no, zero, nada desire to go to church. Drew is
fighting a sinus infection, Jacob hacking away with a cough both
planning to stay home. I excused myself from church attendance - who
would watch the baby? There is no sense in going with the baby (I
told myself - lie). Drew woke up at 9:28, sat bolt upright in the
recliner and said "What are you still doing here?" He had encouraged
me to go to church earlier and I declined. Chloe had just fallen
asleep so he kicked me out with Mary and Abigail in tow. I am so
thankful I went. The message was encouraging but talking to Heidi
afterwards REALLY blessed me. She reminded me that I am not just a
stay at home Mom but a worker of the King of the Universe with little
ones made in His image. Praise God for saints who encourage! She
also directed me to an awesome blog site called
holy experience. I
just finished a good 5 minute cry before typing this. I will battle
sin until Christ returns but I praise Him for the victory that is
mine in Christ.